treading water

Anxiety sets in.
Still in Dallas, hurricanes seem to be following me, as there is a big hurricane coming at Texas. it's definitely not coming up here, but everyone is evacuating far in advance, due to the clusterfuck that was katrina in NOLA. so traffic is insane, even up here and the alarmist gas reports are making people crazy and gas stations are running out of gas.

it looks like i'll have to stay here till the hurricane is over with, and hopefully, people won't be evacuees up in oklahoma, b/c thats where i gotta go next, and it is right in the path of where it will end up, so i have to wait more, since i don't want to be driving in crazy thunderstorms.

today, i woke up really afraid to drive through the desert. i know that i've fixed just about every major thing on my car, but i just am gripped with fear of breaking down in the desert. i can't stop though. i have to go on and whatever happens, i'll make it work. i've done it so far, and i can do it again. i'm not taking the huge drive on I-10, i'm going I-40 up through OK, NM and AZ. and each jog is about 6 hours each. so its not so bad, but there is one stretch of hwy between Amarillo, TX  and NM that even on my triptik says "no gas or services for 165 miles" WHY THE FUCK NOT!?! argh.

i think today the anxiety of this enormous situation is finally getting to me. feeling nomadic, and non-centered. its not a great feeling.
my funds are beginning to run a little low, due to the car repairs, and i've got to get to working and get established in california. Can't someone just teleport me out there?